Are you unsettled too?

How are you all doing?

It’s been a fair while since I posted. I know, I am just a crap blogger (I may have mentioned that before here) I am still OK with that too just so you know!

We’re in really odd times. It’s not just Covid though is it? It’s all the other things that are happening right now that are just adding to the level of turbulence. The wars that seem to be breaking out, the lack of tolerance.

Oh, and while we’re at it, what happened to be kind? Do you remember that? I wrote about that here too. It wasn’t that long ago that the world promising to be a better place. Well, that lasted well, didn’t it?

It can’t be just me, that is living with this level of cynicism with a side order of uneasy, can it?

It feels like there is too much of everything right now. Too much news, too much scaremongering, too much fighting and too much rain if you’re in Manchester. It feels very much like dystopian sensory overload. I really don’t like it.

So what can we do?

For me, it’s all about taking one day at a time and being ok with that. I am learning that right now, that has to be the case to stop the overwhelm. It’s also about taking the wins no matter how small they are. Oh, and a bird feeder!

A bird feeder? Yep, we bought one at the start of lockdown. I make no secret about being a massive animal lover. We’d been talking about getting one for ages. So we bought one. During the time that we couldn’t go out (I was shielding), the garden birds became my window on a life of freedom that I didn’t really have! Those little birds are spoilt rotten, let me tell you!

But for me, it’s also a case of slowing down, not just birdwatching. The general overwhelm is going nowhere, but in some respects, I can live with that. It’s the added extras that send us over the edge. A bit or a lot like living with chronic illness actually come to think of it.

Those of you who have chronic conditions will know that you can cope with so much, then it’s just like all hell breaks loose in your head the moment you flick into something new. I feel like that is where I am at.

But it’s not all doom and gloom. Yes the rules we’re living under here in the UK are nigh on short of nonsensical, but there are some positives.

I’ve set up a new writing corner in my spare bedroom. I am able to see out onto the main road that I live on, and see life. Gazing out of windows is something that I love, I’ve been doing it since I was small – and I continue to excel at that!

I’ve also become much more chilled out about how I get money into my business. I am no longer worrying endlessly about getting new clients (yes, this is a win – but it has been replaced by other worrying sadly!) and I think that shows.

I’ve read more too! I used to love reading as a kid. But like a lot of adults, it was something that got lost on the way when smartphones came in and you could surf the internet in your pocket.

So there you go, a wee update from me about how it all is right now. I don’t think that I am as verbose as I used to be, my brain seems to not want to work the long shifts that it used too – but I guess that’s something else we can blame on Covid isn’t it?