Because not all of us want to wear beige…
March 1989, I was probably just doing my GCSEs, or at least pretending to revise for them, and The Stone Roses released their first (self-titled) album. I have to admit, this one passed me by at the time. Most of the Madchester scene did, to be fair. It wasn't until I went to an open… Continue reading Fools Gold
Sometimes the link between what I write and what I am listening to is pretty tenuous, and this is possibly one of THOSE times. But I am going with it. I have been listening to a LOT of Ned's Atomic Dustbin recently. I have no idea where this came from, not that I didn't listen… Continue reading Happy
It's been a while. I had decided to move all my writing over to Substack, but I changed my mind, and I am coming back here for the more personal/intimate stuff, because maybe I can anonymise this eventually? Trigger warning: I am going to be talking about domestic abuse and shit like that... Anyway... I… Continue reading Headhunter (v1.0)
I know. I said I'd not be writing here again, but somehow, after a few weeks of really disturbed sleep, I felt the need to keep this one separate from the rest. Is that OK? It's rarely the title of a blog comes from a whole album, but I am currently blasting out Curve's Doppelgänger.… Continue reading Doppelgänger
I think we can tell what this blog is going to be about, can't we? I've woken up this morning to the news that the orange one has bombed Iran... I haven't written for a while, to be honest; I haven't been in the mood. My mental health has taken a dip after a series… Continue reading Two Tribes – Carnage Mix
Those of you who are of a certain age might remember this track. Perhaps the finest track on Scoundrel Days... This song held a lot of meaning for me when I was younger, and I never really understood why. Now, nearly forty years after its release, I think I know why... I tried to talk… Continue reading The Weight of the Wind
Two blogs in quick succession means I have a lot to say, right? Maybe... This one is probably just more of an update than anything useful or thought provoking to be honest. Shall we dive in? Family Some of you will know that I am surrounded by cancer. Both my parents have cancer as does… Continue reading Ordinary World
Right from the start this has a trigger warning. This blog is going to talk about self-harm. So if that's not for you, then please scroll on. No hard feelings. I promise! First things first; self-harm, for me, is not just about the obvious. The teenagers who are suffering from existential angst. It's so much… Continue reading Hurt
This blog has been in my head for 15 months. It's going to cover topics around sex, fantasy and other things which some people might not want to read about. This is your chance to step away... If not? Then let's go on a magic carpet ride... I need to start by saying that I… Continue reading China Doll
I am on a roll, another blog in less than a week; and another one that really needed to get out of my head. This one is potentially one of the hardest ones that I have birthed, but my CBT sessions are making me think more about how I react to events around me. The… Continue reading Just leave me alone…
