OK, I’ve been absent for over a hot minute, right? If I was to sit down and write about what had happened in the last two years, we’d be here for a very long time. No one needs that.
Let’s just say that life has been turned upside down on many fronts; I don’t necessarily like it – but I am dealing with it as best I can.
But I am happy to share some edited highlights because you know what I am like!
Employed again…
No, I didn’t see that one coming at all.
But a while ago, cracking on for nearly 18 months, I think, I decided that I wanted to be employed again. I was already working with the company as a contractor, so it all made sense.
Given what had happened in the pandemic, having a job and some regular income felt safe and sane in terms of things to do. It caused issues elsewhere, but that is not for now.
Physical Health
Hmm, no, that’s not good.
My long-standing back injury has been a twat, and it’s worsening. I’ve had another load of consultant appointments, and it’s just a case of waiting. The pandemic put an incredible strain on the NHS, meaning waiting times are insane. Over 6 months for an MRI and 4 months and counting for a physio assessment. There is no wonder people are going private.
I am now also 50; how the hell did that happen!?
I am still peri-menopausal, and I am mostly coping OK with that. I have my odd moments, but that is greatly helped by the wonder of Abi Adams and her Project Woman space. Seriously, go check her out if you’re a ladyperson of a certain age or any age!
Other than that, my health isn’t so bad… But to be honest, my back is sometimes debilitating, and that is enough.
Mental Health
There is probably going to be a lot more on this in future posts. But right now, let’s just say I am hanging on. I am not prepared to speak about a shit load of stuff going off personally. It’s not all my story to tell. But it is testing me to my limits.
I’ve not had meds for depression for over 20 years. It was something that I said I would never do again, but there have been times in the last few months when I have come very close to changing my mind on that.
But I have a cracking squad around me, who I’ll definitely speak of more in future blogs.
This is a bit short and sweet for me, mostly because I just wanted to let you all know that I’ve not just dropped off the face of the earth. There will be more blogs because I am making time to write now, but I also want to make this a journal of what I am thinking and feeling again. A bit like it was when I started it!
Be excellent to each other… Always.
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